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Previously,
on Forgive Me.

2
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I'm on a schedule
here, Father.

3
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I want to make
sure I get credit.

4
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You're gonna die.

5
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You want absolution
before it happens.

6
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Not long.

7
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Weeks, months.

8
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Did you lie to me?

9
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I knew you didn't love me,

10
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but at least I loved you
enough to not ruin your life.

11
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You deprived your
child of a father.

12
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You took away my
chance at being happy.

13
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I gave you your
chance to be happy.

14
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It's easier to hear
confessions than to make them.

15
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I recently found out
that I have a daughter.

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I need your help.

17
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You've had enough of my help.

18
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For 10 years, your
mother fought to keep you

19
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and your brothers alive.

20
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When she dropped you off here,
she couldn't fight anymore.

21
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What's your excuse?

22
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It's our own God damned
mess, clean it up.

23
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Nightmares?

24
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Visitations, maybe.

25
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We're out of cream.

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I'm sorry.

27
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Okay, I forgot.

28
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I'll get some more today.

29
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There's milk.

30
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Did you do the order for mass?

31
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No, not yet.

32
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I'll do the order for mass.

33
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I want you to see a doctor.

34
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What's the matter with him?

35
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Nothing.

36
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You want me to call my guy?

37
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No, no it's fine.

38
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I've got a family doctor,
I'm from around here.

39
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He's not sleeping.

40
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I got a lot on my mind.

41
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I've changed.

42
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Where it matters?

43
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It all matters, believe me.

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You're supposed to--

45
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Oh, forgive me Father,
for I have sinned.

46
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It's been however long it's
been since my last confession.

47
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It all seems a blur.

48
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You've been very busy.

49
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No, not busy that way.

50
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Just coping.

51
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It crept up on me.

52
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Are you in pain?

53
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It's not so bad today.

54
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Maybe when I've been sitting
on this bench for 10 minutes.

55
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We can go
sit somewhere else.

56
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No, no, I like it here.

57
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It blocks out everything else.

58
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That's the idea.

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A church is like
a theater, isn't it?

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I don't think so.

61
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It is, architecturally.

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You have rows of
seats and a stage.

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The pulpit is raised
up like a stage.

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And beautiful lights,

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candles, music of the choir,

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the special effects, when
the cantor waves the smoke.

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It's the biggest show.

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I don't mean it in a bad way.

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I'm not saying it's
hollow theatricality.

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I'm just saying that theaters
are built to emulate churches,

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that's all.

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You were confessing
your 51 years of sin.

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We ran out of time.

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Where was I?

75
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We covered the
unavoidable abortion,

76
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and we covered the divorce.

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The divorce, what
about the marriage?

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I'm sure there
were a lot of sins committed

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in a marriage.

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The whole marriage was a sin.

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We got married in city hall.

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You weren't
married in a church.

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We were, eventually.

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The city hall, you
see, it was convenient.

85
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He was out of money, he
didn't have much money,

86
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and my parents didn't approve.

87
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So we got married in city hall,

88
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but his mother was
beside herself.

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So then we got married
in a church again,

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by a priest.

91
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Still didn't help.

92
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It didn't help the marriage?

93
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The sin.

94
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Oh.

95
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My girlfriend, my roommate.

96
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Well, she had been
my roommate, Mary.

97
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She got married and I was
to be her maid of honor.

98
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She wanted me to be
her maid of honor,

99
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but the priest said no.

100
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Because?

101
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Because we married
in city hall.

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That was the big sin.

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He said I was living in sin.

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That we weren't married legally.

105
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So I wasn't fit to
be a bridesmaid,

106
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and I could be forgiven if I
confessed to living in sin.

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What did you say?

108
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I said, no way!

109
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I said, I'm not living in sin.

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I'm married, I'm
legally married.

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By that time I had
a baby on the way.

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I didn't want him to
be born a bastard,

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so we got married again,
in a church, by a priest.

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They still didn't let
me be maid of honor.

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We don't really vet
the bridesmaids anymore.

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Oh, I know.

117
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I'm stunned by what passes
for a bridesmaid these days.

118
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You don't even
have to be a maid.

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Okay, so the
marriage was a sin.

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I'll just dock you for the time
prior to the church wedding.

121
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How long was that?

122
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Seven months, about.

123
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About as long as after
the church wedding.

124
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You
have a husband now?

125
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I'm a widow.

126
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A divorcee and a widow.

127
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Sorry.

128
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Oh, well, you better let
me be the one to be sorry,

129
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or we'll be here all day.

130
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I enjoy your company.

131
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Well, don't get used to it.

132
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Any news?

133
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They don't really
tell you much, actually.

134
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Well, you need
to advocate for yourself.

135
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Oh, this chapter of my
life is writing itself.

136
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I'm just trying to keep up.

137
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I had hemorrhoids,
that's how I found out.

138
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I'd had blood tests.

139
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I'd had some bleeding, and
then I went on vacation,

140
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and when I got back
I had hemorrhoids.

141
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So I took myself that
night to the emergency room

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at the hospital,
and the doctor said,

143
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yeah, you have hemorrhoids,

144
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but we're more worried
about the cancer.

145
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It was in my chart.

146
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That's awful.

147
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I don't think there's
any good way to find out.

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I stole from my mother.

149
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How much?

150
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$5.

151
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Ah,
that's not that much.

152
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Well it is by 1950's dollars.

153
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You have to account for
inflation in your sentence.

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Penance.

155
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What did you buy with it?

156
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What has--

157
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Just give me a sense of
what it was worth at the time.

158
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I don't know.

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Perfume,

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a movie ticket,

161
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a vanilla ice cream
float, and a soda.

162
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Sounds like you know.

163
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To the nickel.

164
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That was a good evening.

165
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She wouldn't
have given you the money?

166
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To spend it with Tony Pizzoli?

167
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It was harmless.

168
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I mean, it was some
sci-fi thing and soda.

169
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And there was, well, she
wouldn't have allowed it.

170
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And there you go.

171
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I'm glad I stole that $5.

172
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I have very warm memories
of stealing that $5.

173
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You must
be a little sorry.

174
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I honestly don't think I am.

175
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But you confessed to it.

176
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Well, I have guilt.

177
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I mean, I have guilt and shame.

178
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Doesn't that count
for something?

179
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It'll work.

180
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I don't want you
to go easy on me.

181
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I won't.

182
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Tell me about your family.

183
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Ah, they can confess
their own sins.

184
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Hmm.

185
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Have you told your daughter?

186
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I'm sorry, this visit
was rather impromptu.

187
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I didn't plan anything to say.

188
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Last time I practiced.

189
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Why did you come in today?

190
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I just wanted to talk
to somebody who's sane.

191
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Everybody's so crazy.

192
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People turn crazy
when there's cancer.

193
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My son says he's
mourned me already.

194
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He said he put down the
phone when he heard,

195
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and he experienced the
grief of losing me.

196
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And now he's, I don't know,

197
00:10:00,689 --> 00:10:04,413
he's in some post-mortem
or something.

198
00:10:04,413 --> 00:10:06,551
You know, he's moved to
a new state mentally.

199
00:10:06,551 --> 00:10:08,068
He's in denial.

200
00:10:08,068 --> 00:10:09,482
He's in gaga land.

201
00:10:09,482 --> 00:10:11,895
He's so advanced spiritually.

202
00:10:13,033 --> 00:10:14,378
But then I didn't
raise him Catholic,

203
00:10:14,378 --> 00:10:17,482
so that's why he's
living in the new age.

204
00:10:17,482 --> 00:10:18,827
And that's a sin, isn't it?

205
00:10:18,827 --> 00:10:20,999
To not raise your
children Catholic.

206
00:10:20,999 --> 00:10:22,792
They weren't baptized?

207
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Just the first one.

208
00:10:26,275 --> 00:10:27,516
I'm not sure.

209
00:10:28,999 --> 00:10:31,654
I didn't want to pay the
money for the second one.

210
00:10:31,654 --> 00:10:35,137
The third one, by the
time he came around,

211
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I was done with the church.

212
00:10:40,275 --> 00:10:42,585
How much is it for last rites?

213
00:10:42,585 --> 00:10:44,068
For you?

214
00:10:44,068 --> 00:10:45,689
Family discount.

215
00:10:47,827 --> 00:10:49,827
The sacraments aren't for sale.

216
00:10:49,827 --> 00:10:51,723
I mean, you and your family,
you could make a donation

217
00:10:51,723 --> 00:10:55,171
if you want, but it's
not obligatory, you know?

218
00:10:55,171 --> 00:10:56,964
Well, I'm sorry
for being cynical.

219
00:10:56,964 --> 00:10:58,895
Cynicism's not a sin.

220
00:10:58,895 --> 00:11:00,447
Well, it should be.

221
00:11:00,447 --> 00:11:03,929
It's done me more damage than
stealing $5 from my mother.

222
00:11:03,929 --> 00:11:05,929
Christ embraces doubt.

223
00:11:06,999 --> 00:11:08,689
St. Thomas was a doubter.

224
00:11:08,689 --> 00:11:11,447
Christ, he also
experienced doubt.

225
00:11:11,447 --> 00:11:13,999
I thought I was sinning
a lot more than I was.

226
00:11:13,999 --> 00:11:16,654
Apparently, I was
just being a cow.

227
00:11:16,654 --> 00:11:20,826
Well, a sin is something
that we say, or do, or think.

228
00:11:21,964 --> 00:11:24,723
Or, I mean, you don't
say, or don't do.

229
00:11:24,723 --> 00:11:28,033
Well, what about
things I don't think?

230
00:11:28,033 --> 00:11:29,654
Well, I don't
think that you can be punished

231
00:11:29,654 --> 00:11:31,309
for an absence of thought.

232
00:11:31,309 --> 00:11:33,585
Unless it was
willful, but, I mean,

233
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that falls under thinking.

234
00:11:34,758 --> 00:11:36,999
So thoughtlessness
is not a sin.

235
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I don't know.

236
00:11:37,929 --> 00:11:39,620
It depends.

237
00:11:39,620 --> 00:11:43,033
You seem to be rather
recalcitrant today.

238
00:11:45,344 --> 00:11:48,102
I'm thinking of
killing myself.

239
00:11:50,791 --> 00:11:54,585
I can't be
flexible on this one.

240
00:11:54,585 --> 00:11:56,964
That's a sinful thought.

241
00:11:56,964 --> 00:11:58,206
I have a brother.

242
00:11:58,206 --> 00:12:01,206
I was thinking of
asking him to help.

243
00:12:02,378 --> 00:12:04,723
To help you kill yourself?

244
00:12:05,929 --> 00:12:09,999
I think he's wanted to
kill me since I was 12.

245
00:12:09,999 --> 00:12:11,482
I was a terrible sister.

246
00:12:11,482 --> 00:12:13,689
So fresh-mouthed.

247
00:12:13,689 --> 00:12:15,860
I thought I was
smarter than him.

248
00:12:15,860 --> 00:12:17,413
And he wasn't allowed
to beat me up,

249
00:12:17,413 --> 00:12:21,929
so I was merciless,
mercilessly condescending.

250
00:12:21,929 --> 00:12:23,620
It still wouldn't
be a reward for him

251
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to help you kill yourself.

252
00:12:25,689 --> 00:12:26,895
It'd be a punishment.

253
00:12:26,895 --> 00:12:29,102
He'd carry it for
the rest of his life.

254
00:12:29,102 --> 00:12:30,999
You don't know my brother.

255
00:12:30,999 --> 00:12:33,895
All of this is a long way off.

256
00:12:33,895 --> 00:12:35,413
You've got a lot of
life left in you.

257
00:12:35,413 --> 00:12:36,654
That depends.

258
00:12:37,585 --> 00:12:38,413
On?

259
00:12:38,413 --> 00:12:39,620
On these treatments.

260
00:12:39,620 --> 00:12:42,240
The chemo, the
radiation therapy.

261
00:12:42,240 --> 00:12:45,206
This suppressor
and that stimulant.

262
00:12:45,206 --> 00:12:48,895
I just, I'm just not sure
that I want to do it.

263
00:12:48,895 --> 00:12:53,516
Every day that it buys me,
it buys me a day of vomiting.

264
00:12:53,516 --> 00:12:54,999
Those are
difficult decisions.

265
00:12:54,999 --> 00:12:56,068
Yeah, I know.

266
00:12:56,068 --> 00:12:58,344
Don't give me lines.

267
00:12:58,344 --> 00:13:01,585
Sometimes cliches
are just true.

268
00:13:01,585 --> 00:13:03,240
What would you do?

269
00:13:05,309 --> 00:13:07,654
I wouldn't kill myself.

270
00:13:07,654 --> 00:13:10,999
I would have said
that two months ago.

271
00:13:12,275 --> 00:13:14,413
What would you actually do?

272
00:13:14,413 --> 00:13:17,068
Would you have these treatments?

273
00:13:19,722 --> 00:13:24,033
If I needed the time
that they'd grant me.

274
00:13:24,033 --> 00:13:27,344
Would it be a sin if I
didn't tell my daughter.

275
00:13:27,344 --> 00:13:28,482
It would be very wrong.

276
00:13:28,482 --> 00:13:30,309
I don't know if would be a sin,

277
00:13:30,309 --> 00:13:33,171
but it would be very wrong.

278
00:13:33,171 --> 00:13:34,929
Maybe I should
find a meaner priest.

279
00:13:34,929 --> 00:13:36,482
Ooh, I know some.

280
00:13:38,964 --> 00:13:41,413
I don't want her to crumble.

281
00:13:41,413 --> 00:13:44,137
It's one thing to hear
that your mother died.

282
00:13:44,137 --> 00:13:46,757
It's another thing to watch it.

283
00:13:46,757 --> 00:13:48,413
It's another thing to know
that your mother loves you

284
00:13:48,413 --> 00:13:51,240
enough to see you
before she dies.

285
00:13:54,585 --> 00:13:55,860
I could talk to her for you.

286
00:13:55,860 --> 00:13:58,826
No, I don't think
she'd understand that.

287
00:13:58,826 --> 00:14:00,826
Just an offer.

288
00:14:00,826 --> 00:14:02,860
I appreciate your help.

289
00:14:02,860 --> 00:14:04,240
It's what I do.

290
00:14:07,860 --> 00:14:10,171
It's helpful just to talk.

291
00:14:14,033 --> 00:14:15,999
I never cheated on my husband.

292
00:14:15,999 --> 00:14:18,033
I did think about it a lot.

293
00:14:18,033 --> 00:14:19,378
Good!

294
00:14:19,378 --> 00:14:20,895
Good that I sinned.

295
00:14:20,895 --> 00:14:22,757
Good that you recognized
the sin of the thought,

296
00:14:22,757 --> 00:14:27,171
and that it stopped you
from committing a worse sin.

297
00:14:27,171 --> 00:14:29,551
That's actually, that's
something that I've been

298
00:14:29,551 --> 00:14:31,447
thinking about a lot lately.

299
00:14:31,447 --> 00:14:34,413
Are you having
sinful thoughts?

300
00:14:34,413 --> 00:14:35,999
I mean, yeah, I
have sinful thoughts.

301
00:14:35,999 --> 00:14:38,482
Everybody has sinful thoughts.

302
00:14:39,860 --> 00:14:43,137
Without temptation,
there'd be no redemption.

303
00:14:43,137 --> 00:14:45,102
Why are we supposed
to feel guilty then?

304
00:14:45,102 --> 00:14:47,482
For having the same
thoughts as everybody else?

305
00:14:47,482 --> 00:14:50,275
Maybe because if we
didn't feel guilty,

306
00:14:50,275 --> 00:14:52,447
then you'd end up acting
on those feelings.

307
00:14:52,447 --> 00:14:56,551
You'd muck up everybody's
lives, mostly your own.

308
00:15:00,171 --> 00:15:03,929
It was a torture
for me growing up.

309
00:15:03,929 --> 00:15:06,171
Always worried about what
everybody would think,

310
00:15:06,171 --> 00:15:10,344
or thinking I was gonna be
exposed as a fraud or a freak.

311
00:15:11,860 --> 00:15:14,137
Every kid
is afraid of that,

312
00:15:14,137 --> 00:15:16,102
you know, regardless
of their religions.

313
00:15:16,102 --> 00:15:18,137
I mean, do you think your
own children are exempt

314
00:15:18,137 --> 00:15:20,722
from those feelings because
they weren't raised Catholic?

315
00:15:20,722 --> 00:15:23,447
I think I made them
feel the same way

316
00:15:23,447 --> 00:15:25,275
that my mother did me.

317
00:15:28,619 --> 00:15:31,688
I wish I could tell them things.

318
00:15:31,688 --> 00:15:35,171
I wish I could tell
them not to be afraid.

319
00:15:36,240 --> 00:15:37,688
To be whoever they want to be,

320
00:15:37,688 --> 00:15:39,275
not to worry what
other people think,

321
00:15:39,275 --> 00:15:41,619
especially not what I think.

322
00:15:42,895 --> 00:15:45,102
I don't think they knew my.

323
00:15:47,378 --> 00:15:51,447
I don't think they knew that
my love was unconditional.

324
00:15:51,447 --> 00:15:54,929
I thought that I would
keep them in line.

325
00:15:54,929 --> 00:15:58,102
That I would protect them
from embarrassing themselves.

326
00:15:58,102 --> 00:16:02,791
But now I would say, embarrass
the crap out of yourself,

327
00:16:02,791 --> 00:16:05,653
if it makes you feel happy.

328
00:16:05,653 --> 00:16:06,860
Tell 'em.

329
00:16:06,860 --> 00:16:07,826
Tell 'em to embarrass
the crap outta ya

330
00:16:07,826 --> 00:16:10,033
on the way to happiness.

331
00:16:10,033 --> 00:16:11,447
I think I will.

332
00:16:12,791 --> 00:16:15,240
And then you give yourself
the same permission.

333
00:16:15,240 --> 00:16:16,619
That is a contradiction.

334
00:16:16,619 --> 00:16:18,584
The whole basic
tenet of the religion

335
00:16:18,584 --> 00:16:23,171
is not to do what you want,
but to follow the rules.

336
00:16:23,171 --> 00:16:26,309
You can still be yourself.

337
00:16:26,309 --> 00:16:28,929
You can't not have
sinful thoughts.

338
00:16:28,929 --> 00:16:31,413
You know, don't revel in them.

339
00:16:32,584 --> 00:16:35,309
Just be able to
forgive yourself.

340
00:16:36,757 --> 00:16:39,584
Don't want to put
you out of a job.

341
00:16:39,584 --> 00:16:40,964
The point of being
forgiven by God

342
00:16:40,964 --> 00:16:43,791
is so that you can
forgive yourself.

343
00:16:43,791 --> 00:16:45,137
Is that why I'm here?

344
00:16:45,137 --> 00:16:46,653
To forgive myself?

345
00:16:48,309 --> 00:16:51,137
Are you afraid
of going to hell?

346
00:16:52,826 --> 00:16:54,033
I don't know.

347
00:16:56,102 --> 00:16:58,791
But I am here to forgive myself.

348
00:17:01,964 --> 00:17:04,206
I think you're right.

349
00:17:04,206 --> 00:17:06,413
God wants to forgive you too.

350
00:17:06,413 --> 00:17:08,378
Well, I'm not
making it easy on him,

351
00:17:08,378 --> 00:17:12,653
because I keep forgetting
what I'm supposed to confess.

352
00:17:12,653 --> 00:17:15,999
I think you should
write it down.

353
00:17:15,999 --> 00:17:18,378
Think about it, when you've
got a little bit of time

354
00:17:18,378 --> 00:17:19,722
in your waiting.

355
00:17:21,206 --> 00:17:22,206
Make a list.

356
00:17:24,447 --> 00:17:27,378
Be thorough, let everything go.

357
00:17:27,378 --> 00:17:29,860
And then you give it to me.

358
00:17:29,860 --> 00:17:33,171
Huh, where have
you been all my life?

359
00:17:33,171 --> 00:17:35,137
I'll give it to God,

360
00:17:35,137 --> 00:17:37,826
and He's always been right here.

361
00:17:41,791 --> 00:17:45,275
I don't know how to
do this, gracefully.

362
00:17:47,550 --> 00:17:49,722
You're well on your way.

363
00:17:54,791 --> 00:17:56,240
God the Father of mercies,

364
00:17:56,240 --> 00:17:58,964
through the death and
resurrection of Your Son,

365
00:17:58,964 --> 00:18:00,584
You have reconciled
Yourself to the world

366
00:18:00,584 --> 00:18:02,722
and sent the Holy
Spirit among us

367
00:18:02,722 --> 00:18:05,550
for the forgiveness of sins.

368
00:18:05,550 --> 00:18:06,791
Through the ministry
of the church,

369
00:18:06,791 --> 00:18:08,515
may the Lord grant
you peace and pardon

370
00:18:08,515 --> 00:18:11,102
and I absolve you of your sins.

371
00:18:12,240 --> 00:18:14,619
In the name of the
Father, and of the Son,

372
00:18:14,619 --> 00:18:15,999
and of the Holy Spirit, amen.

373
00:18:15,999 --> 00:18:16,860
Amen.

374
00:18:20,688 --> 00:18:21,688
Thank you.

375
00:18:39,860 --> 00:18:41,068
Gran?

376
00:18:41,068 --> 00:18:42,240
Hey.

377
00:18:42,240 --> 00:18:43,068
Hi.

378
00:18:43,999 --> 00:18:46,722
I want you to meet somebody.

379
00:18:46,722 --> 00:18:49,550
This is my friend, Noelle.

380
00:18:49,550 --> 00:18:50,826
Noelle, this is Gran.

381
00:18:50,826 --> 00:18:51,653
Hi.

382
00:18:54,344 --> 00:18:55,171
Uh, do you want some milk?

383
00:18:55,171 --> 00:18:55,999
Have a seat.

384
00:18:55,999 --> 00:18:57,446
Good, yeah.

385
00:18:57,446 --> 00:18:59,171
I'll get you some.

386
00:19:11,344 --> 00:19:13,275
What are you doing?

387
00:19:13,275 --> 00:19:15,929
I wanted you to meet her.

388
00:19:15,929 --> 00:19:19,240
I wanted you to look
at her in her eyes.

389
00:19:19,240 --> 00:19:21,240
It's all it took for me.

390
00:19:35,171 --> 00:19:36,999
I could take part time work.

391
00:19:36,999 --> 00:19:38,929
They won't go for it.

392
00:19:38,929 --> 00:19:41,481
You're supposed to be learning.

393
00:19:42,653 --> 00:19:45,929
You know when this lot
retires, that's it.

394
00:19:45,929 --> 00:19:48,033
You'll be doing all three jobs.

395
00:19:48,033 --> 00:19:50,722
I do Father Phil's job now.

396
00:19:50,722 --> 00:19:52,999
You're a good kid.

397
00:19:52,999 --> 00:19:57,206
You'd bring a lot of
hope to this parish.

398
00:19:57,206 --> 00:19:58,550
I'm not a kid.

399
00:19:59,929 --> 00:20:01,584
Hey, I have a kid.

400
00:20:01,584 --> 00:20:03,137
Who doesn't know.

401
00:20:08,275 --> 00:20:12,308
I mean, if she were
to move in with us,

402
00:20:12,308 --> 00:20:13,999
then maybe her mother,
or my grandmother,

403
00:20:13,999 --> 00:20:16,584
could help with some
of the expenses.

404
00:20:16,584 --> 00:20:19,308
Her mother wants her
to live at the rectory?

405
00:20:19,308 --> 00:20:20,481
I don't know.

406
00:20:20,481 --> 00:20:21,308
No.

407
00:20:22,757 --> 00:20:27,033
The church could never get
involved in a custody battle.

408
00:20:27,033 --> 00:20:29,722
I just need to know
what my options are.

409
00:20:29,722 --> 00:20:33,377
I need to know if I
even have any options.

410
00:20:33,377 --> 00:20:35,653
You need to think
about your child,

411
00:20:35,653 --> 00:20:38,068
and you need to
think about yourself,

412
00:20:38,068 --> 00:20:39,999
and your congregation.

413
00:20:39,999 --> 00:20:43,964
People, they like their
heroes one dimensional.

414
00:20:45,343 --> 00:20:48,550
They don't like their
politicians having affairs,

415
00:20:48,550 --> 00:20:52,377
or their great generals
sending filthy emails.

416
00:20:54,999 --> 00:20:57,171
Priest who's a baby daddy?

417
00:20:58,102 --> 00:21:00,171
It loses moral authority.

418
00:21:02,999 --> 00:21:04,550
Then what do I do?

419
00:21:04,550 --> 00:21:08,619
Well, are you under direct
pressure to do anything?

420
00:21:08,619 --> 00:21:11,171
Is the mother asking for money?

421
00:21:12,722 --> 00:21:13,550
No.

422
00:21:15,619 --> 00:21:18,102
Well, let sleeping dogs lie.

423
00:21:20,860 --> 00:21:23,895
Then I really do lose
my moral authority.

424
00:21:25,068 --> 00:21:27,515
So I guess I already lost it.

425
00:21:28,688 --> 00:21:31,653
Well, don't forget
the coffee cream.

426
00:21:52,791 --> 00:21:54,446
What you watching?

427
00:21:56,343 --> 00:21:58,239
Did you get the milk?

428
00:21:58,239 --> 00:22:02,102
I thought you told
me to get cream?

429
00:23:11,136 --> 00:23:12,068
You okay?

430
00:23:14,205 --> 00:23:15,033
Yeah.

431
00:23:17,929 --> 00:23:18,722
Yeah.

432
00:23:21,515 --> 00:23:22,343
Good.

433
00:23:28,239 --> 00:23:33,481
♪ We shall

434
00:23:34,722 --> 00:23:38,895
♪ We shall inherit
what went wrong

435
00:23:41,999 --> 00:23:46,170
♪ We shall inherit
what went wrong

436
00:23:49,964 --> 00:23:53,895
♪ Use what we took for granted

437
00:23:55,308 --> 00:23:59,515
♪ We shall inherit
what went wrong

438
00:24:03,481 --> 00:24:07,377
♪ Use what we took for granted

439
00:24:10,377 --> 00:24:16,136
♪ For granted

440
00:24:18,377 --> 00:24:20,101
♪ Ah

441
00:24:25,791 --> 00:24:27,550
Next
time, on Forgive Me.

442
00:24:27,550 --> 00:24:30,067
Nobody knows what goes on
in these confession boxes,

443
00:24:30,067 --> 00:24:31,308
and that's the bloody trouble.

444
00:24:31,308 --> 00:24:32,895
There are reasons
for that secrecy.

445
00:24:32,895 --> 00:24:35,377
And you use that
secrecy to frighten people

446
00:24:35,377 --> 00:24:37,999
and to keep them under control.

447
00:24:37,999 --> 00:24:42,481
Have any of you ever been
asked to break the seal?

448
00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:44,136
Of the confessional?

449
00:24:45,446 --> 00:24:47,377
Somebody asked you to do that?

450
00:24:47,377 --> 00:24:48,412
I know that there is
a reason that you came

451
00:24:48,412 --> 00:24:49,929
to the church today.

452
00:24:49,929 --> 00:24:53,550
I will never come
back to your church.

453
00:24:53,550 --> 00:24:55,377
Did he commit a crime.